Do you know there are just times when you feel sooooo depressed until you just want to drop everything, ignore there's only about 2k in the bank account and fly back to UK and drown yourself in the gray and bleak weather there.

I know....because I constantly feel like that. London to me, always is a sad city and always will remain one. My memories of London,cold,wet,gray, the smell of weed and cold(even the people there is as cold as the weather). All those makes up to the London I know and familiar with. And for some reason i missed it a lot a lot. I especially missed drowning myself in the whole sad and cold atmosphere. Where no ones actually cares if ur tears are all over the face while walking dwn Oxford St. The english coldness kind of blend in well with the whole weather and gray skyline.


From one depressing country I came back to a sun filled country where I thought I will be far away from sorrow and loneliness. But little that i know there are parts of one's soul will never ever be shine by the sun. So from one deep valley I slumped myself into another deeper one. And i now feel so so much going back to the beginning of all these.

I am not quite sure what is going on in my head.

But i do know i missed London terribly........